Hate playing the waiting game

So I have finally given in and went to the doctor. Ok let me back track a little bit. Since my miscarriage I have not had a regular period cycle. Meaning I wasn't regular at all. For instance I started my period Aug 3rd 2010 on day 27 of my cycle and I started my period on day 45, Sept 17 2010. So I went in and asked them to do blood work because something is off. I went in April, to the base dr, and they said that they didn't want to blood tests it was to soon after the miscarriage and that my body hadn't regulated itself yet. They also said that the only thing they could do for me was perscribe me birth control to help regulate my cycle.

I hate birth control, I hate how it makes me feel and I hate that it can make me emotionally unstable.

So I went to the doctor on the 13th, where I explained my situation, and I had been in there 2 times previously with in 30 days, one I was sick and the other was a yearly female appointment. I love my doctor, she listens to me and I feel like I'm heard, not treated like I am an idiot. I also mentioned to her about what the dr on base told me. She gave me this look like that doctor was stupid. She even asked why in the world would he do that, if you want to get pregnant why wouldn't have give you something to help you ovulate?"

So they took my blood, about 6 vials to be exact, and tested a bunch of diffrent things; thyroid, progesterone levels, blood sugar, for anemia, pregnancy and a few others that I can't remember. So I am waiting for the results, which is driving me crazy because I want answers, I want something where I can say oooo that makes sense. And then we can figure out what the next step is. The doctor said she would call me when she got all of the results and I asked when that could be, she said some of the results she would get that day and the others would take about a week.

Best case it's my thyroid. If it's not my thyroid I will be refered to an ob/gyn, and looking a possibly getting an ultrasound to see if something is going on. My doctor was fishing for cysts but I told her that I had zero pain, wasn't tender to the touch etc.

So now it's hurry up and wait. Blah.

Ramblings of someone who can't sleep due to meds

So much has changed since the last time I blogged, we bought a house, family has came to visit, trips to orlando, and we celebrated our one year anniversary. I have been horriable with keeping up with my blog, but am going to make an effort to try to do this on a semi regular basis. I wish there was an app so I could update it from my phone, like my facebook. Life has been changing and going by to fast. Between work, family visiting, and all the regular life events I don't have a lot of computer time. I'm hoping to have some time next weekend to update my blog, we shall see. I'm not even sure if anyone really cares about what I put up.

I currently can't sleep because I have cough syrup that I am taking. It's supposed to make me drowsy...and that is a big negative. I'm tired but no sleep. So once it wears off I may get some sleep. Why did I take it if I know it makes it so I can't sleep? Or why not take it during the day? Well the cough syrup is a narcotic so I can't take it and drive anywhere, not to mention that there is the rare chance that it may actually work the way it's supposed to. I am odd dayquil, children's non-drowsy tylenol makes me drowsy while the stuff that is supposed to make me tired turns me into a zombie, wishing I could sleep. If I don't take the syrup I cough a ton all night, and then all day.

So I'm going to hit the hay. Hope to be blogging in a weekish.

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